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I am sick and tired of being sick and tired with no explanation. I'm tired of the near-constant brainfog, of wanting to sleep twelve hours a night, of coming home from work and not having the energy to do anything but sit on the sofa and stare at the internet. None of this is new. This has been the last eight years of my life, with increasing severity.
What's new is that I've lost twenty-five pounds in a month and a half, without changing what I eat or how I exercise (in fact, I've been eating more). My fingernails have started breaking all the time. I sweat in my sleep.
I've had piles of tests done. I could give a laundry list of things that aren't wrong with me, because all of them have come back normal. And GPs just look at me and shrug and say things like 'it's probably stress' or 'you need to exercise more' and it's just... no. Something is wrong. And nobody knows what it is, or has the decency to straight-up say 'yeah, there's something wrong here but I can't tell you what' instead of making me feel like a paranoid hypochondriac, which, by the way, is a really shitty thing to do to someone with anxiety disorders.
What's new is that I've lost twenty-five pounds in a month and a half, without changing what I eat or how I exercise (in fact, I've been eating more). My fingernails have started breaking all the time. I sweat in my sleep.
I've had piles of tests done. I could give a laundry list of things that aren't wrong with me, because all of them have come back normal. And GPs just look at me and shrug and say things like 'it's probably stress' or 'you need to exercise more' and it's just... no. Something is wrong. And nobody knows what it is, or has the decency to straight-up say 'yeah, there's something wrong here but I can't tell you what' instead of making me feel like a paranoid hypochondriac, which, by the way, is a really shitty thing to do to someone with anxiety disorders.
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Date: 2012-05-20 02:03 am (UTC)From:no subject
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Date: 2012-05-20 02:14 am (UTC)From:And it was normal. SO PISSED.
I mean, those who knew I was looking into it were like "Yay! You don't have thyroid problems! Thyroid problems are awful!" And I was like "But if I had thyroid problems then someone might know how to make me not feel FREAKING HORRIBLE CONSTANTLY."
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Date: 2012-05-20 02:17 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2012-05-20 02:27 am (UTC)From:But if there's something that can be done, I WANT IT DONE. (I seriously am shocked I managed to make it to 2012, still am not convinced I'll survive to 2013 unless something gets fixed.)
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Date: 2012-05-20 02:31 am (UTC)From:no subject
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Date: 2012-05-20 02:43 am (UTC)From:You get the throat tightness thing too? I've had problems with that for a while - to the point where at one point I thought I was having an allergic reaction to a med - along with trouble swallowing.
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Date: 2012-05-20 02:53 am (UTC)From:The throat tightness thing was what tipped me off to look at thyroid problems. I'd had panic attacks off and on for ages, but usually the tension seemed centered in my stomach, and suddenly I realized that the tension was now centered in my throat, and it wasn't always a panic attack, just tension in my throat. (Heck, as I'm typing this, my throat is so tight it ACHES, but nothing else feels particularly wrong except that I'm tired. :P) Googled the problem, found out it could mean thyroid issues, went PING! ...Got tested, nothing.
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Date: 2012-05-20 03:04 am (UTC)From:I can actually feel it too right now - kind of like something is pushing in right under my chin. It's a little panic-inducing if I actually pay attention to it (which is why I try not pay attention to it). Though not painful, at least.
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Date: 2012-05-20 03:11 am (UTC)From:Mine really does feel like tension, like when someone says that they have a lump in their throat? That's what it feels like. Sometimes I can loosen it up a little by yawning or coughing, but that may or may not last long. Sometimes I think I should take up drinking large amounts of alcohol. :P
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Date: 2012-05-20 03:30 am (UTC)From:And yes, that's exactly it.
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Date: 2012-05-21 12:06 am (UTC)From:Except that means someone else is dealing with the same crap I am, and that sucks. Especially when neither of us are getting anywhere.
(In fact, while grumbling around about this, went back and looked at the hyperthyroidism article on wikipedia again, and clicked on a few of the symptoms that were odd words I didn't know off the top of my head. ...EXCESSIVE THIRST TOO?! How do I not have hyperthyroidism?)
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Date: 2012-05-21 12:09 am (UTC)From: