*sigh* Having another moment of late-night indecision, although this time about my chosen field of study rather than where I'm going. And I know it's stupid to get worked up about - I can name several people off-hand who have jobs they love in careers totally unrelated to their undergrad degree. I guess it's just...I'm afraid of not being good enough at science to make it. I already had to be honest with myself and admit that while I love costume/fashion design, and graphic design, I am and probably will never be anywhere near good enough to make it my life. And that hurt, and I'm afraid everything I try to do will turn out that way.
Ugh. Am going to try getting to sleep some more, because I know I'll feel better afterwards.
Ugh. Am going to try getting to sleep some more, because I know I'll feel better afterwards.
academia and concern
Date: 2006-09-07 09:52 am (UTC)From:I remember how during what should've been my senior year of art school, a friend of mine who was about to graduate replied to my expression of frustration with the school by asking me, "Why don't you quit? I wish I'd quit." It took me several more months of classes to realize that she was right.
Science, with objectivity and truth, teaches you the analytical attitude. I have no head for facts and equations and specific knowledge in an academic field, but I think all the required sciences I took in high school gave me a more general understanding that still helps me today - the ability to acquire knowledge through a controlled process, to experimentally verify, to look inside a thing and see how it works.
I think there are a lot of things you can study in college that do not prepare you for anything you're likely to do in adult, professional life. I think that science, whatever field, will never be like that.