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*sigh* Having another moment of late-night indecision, although this time about my chosen field of study rather than where I'm going. And I know it's stupid to get worked up about - I can name several people off-hand who have jobs they love in careers totally unrelated to their undergrad degree. I guess it's just...I'm afraid of not being good enough at science to make it. I already had to be honest with myself and admit that while I love costume/fashion design, and graphic design, I am and probably will never be anywhere near good enough to make it my life. And that hurt, and I'm afraid everything I try to do will turn out that way.
Ugh. Am going to try getting to sleep some more, because I know I'll feel better afterwards.
Ugh. Am going to try getting to sleep some more, because I know I'll feel better afterwards.
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Date: 2006-08-24 12:13 pm (UTC)From:That's really not a good way to think about anything... least of all something that you love. There are several times I've thought about how hard it's going to be being an artist, and that there are so many people who are much better than me (as of five years ago), and that I just might never be good enough ever. And it stopped me from doing what I really, really wanted for several years now.
Do it because you love science, cookie. There's no way you'll fail if you love something that much --- you might not make a ton of money, or you might not get to do exactly what you'd envision as perfect, but you'll succeed, in one way or the other.
Because you're full of awesome. xD ♥
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Date: 2006-08-24 05:24 pm (UTC)From:Then do it.
The main thing here is, remember, when you get your degree, your GPA won't be plastered on it. Go to college and learn whatever you want. Take as long as you need. I'm transferring, so it's gonna take me more than 4 years. That's so common. You don't have to finidh in 4 years. You can switch majors.
And hey, take a risk. I'd put money on the fact that your lack of design skill is naievity. Take some classes. Work at it. Hey, maybe even minor in it. No one can expect you to be good at something innately. Aside from eating, breathing and sleeping and all that survival junk, people have to learn things. I mean, think about the best artist you know. Went to school for years, right? Have you ever seriously studied design? If you want to, go for it. It seems like that's where your heart really is.
I'd say study in design and science, pick one as a major and minor. You don't have to pick which one will be which till your second year anyway. Explore! You're too young to set yourself into this nook. Seriously. Stop being old. ^-^ Be free.
And yeah, it may take more loans, but you'll be a lot happier paying 'em off if you got something good out of it.
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Date: 2006-08-28 02:27 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-08-28 04:30 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-08-29 03:49 am (UTC)From:But of course.
academia and concern
Date: 2006-09-07 09:52 am (UTC)From:I remember how during what should've been my senior year of art school, a friend of mine who was about to graduate replied to my expression of frustration with the school by asking me, "Why don't you quit? I wish I'd quit." It took me several more months of classes to realize that she was right.
Science, with objectivity and truth, teaches you the analytical attitude. I have no head for facts and equations and specific knowledge in an academic field, but I think all the required sciences I took in high school gave me a more general understanding that still helps me today - the ability to acquire knowledge through a controlled process, to experimentally verify, to look inside a thing and see how it works.
I think there are a lot of things you can study in college that do not prepare you for anything you're likely to do in adult, professional life. I think that science, whatever field, will never be like that.