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Screw feeling abandoned, I now feel replaced. Did I really mean that little to you, that you can just do that? Fuck. I hate my life. And Calc 1, which is unfortunately part of my life.

I have a new copy of Good Omens and some new Fruits Basket, and somehow this doesn't cheer me up at all -.-

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Well, the main thing I need to make the wings for is Devil's Trill, which I've been planning for ages. I doubt I'll be able to afford more than one pair, unless you want to do mini-wings.

I've always been under the impression that wings aren't terribly expensive, just time-consuming. I'd like to do big wings, and yeah, I'd still like to do Crowley. It's kind of pointless by myself, though.

Unfortunately, your impression was incorrect.

And to be honest, I'm a bit hurt that your plans with Chris suddenly take precedence over your plans with me.

They don't. Devil's Trill comes first because I've wanted to do it for years.

Well, regardless, the fact that you've suddenly dropped almost all your other plans to do that does hurt, a lot. _That's_ why I feel replaced. Because your plans with Chris, regardless of how long you've been planning it, have suddenly overriden plans _we've_ had.

Cocoa. Devil's Trill has been #1 on my cosplay list for AGES. It's not 'sudden' in the slightest. And you're more part of that than Chris is, anyway--Muraki doesn't even show up in that story arc!

Tatsumi doesn't really have a part, and you hate him anyway - it has never been 'my' plan. And you've _still_ basically dropped all our cosplay plans for the last one or two cons I'll be going to with you for a while.

And you hate my character. What's your point.

'Our' cosplay plans like what?

That I'm not more a part of that group than Chris is, really. Particularly in spirit.

Looking down my list...FF7, Zelda, Bookworld Yami, KKM, Shadow Hearts, FMA, the Turks, the Wonderland CCS group, and I think you had at least two different sets of Sailor Moon plans which are on another list somewhere else.

FF7 was never my plan in the first place, I'll still do Book World Yami, I'm probably still doing Kyou Kara Maou, I'm still doing Shadow Hearts, I may or may not do FMA, Mara's in your Turks group and she doesn't want to see me, I'd definitely like to do Wonderland CCs, I'm still doing Sailor Moon.

It would have been impossible to do all those in the same year anyway; I have to prioritize. Basically I'm going to get Devil's Trill done and see what I have time for after that.

...Well, you gave off the distinct impression that you were doing Devil's Trill, and that was your cosplay plan for AB. Which means none of those are getting done while I'm still here.

And I think Mara's sentiment is more that she doesn't want to be around you if you're going to secretly hate it and/or pretend nothing ever happened. Which, to be honest, you haven't shown any inclination of not doing, at least as far as I can see. Having hung around with two people who are secretly glowering at each other isn't an enjoyable experience for _anyone_ - I've been there.

No, Devil's Trill is for Otakon. But it's my top priority.

And I really don't think Mara has much to do with our discussion.

...So...you're not cosplaying for AB? Going to AB? Something like that?

And you brought her up by saying you weren't doing groups because she doesn't want to see you. I was clarifying that particular remark.

I'm going to AB and cosplaying there, but I don't know what/how much I'm going to have time for before AB.

...Well, if you leave it off until later to decide what you have time to do, you're, uh, not going to have that time any more. You've got eight months, which is a _lot_ of time if you use it wisely.

(Also, I won't press the issue, but...not talking about Mara will not make her or the problem magically go away.)

What's so unclear about this? Once I know how much time Devil's Trill is going to take me, I'll decide what else to do. I'm going to finish it before I start on anything else.

There is no problem to "magically go away". And why must you be so condescending?

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PS. Although I asked Chris to be my Yuri for SH, as you described the game as 'not particularily intriguing' and thus I assumed you wouldn't want to cosplay it. He's not sure if he'll have time, though.

I offered to if you wanted me, and said as much. And by 'not particularly intriguing' I mean the ratio of interesting plot to really stupid gameplay (I maintain 'brute force' is not a valid boss-strategy any RPG should have) was such that if you had wanted it back, I wouldn't have been OMGdestroyed to mail it back to you. If you don't want it, then I'll probably start playing it again eventually when I'm bored enough to deal with really stupid boss fights, which is where I'm stuck. Which is more than I can say for KotOR, or MGS, or Goldeneye.

You never gave me a final answer, you gave me an "I'll play the game and see." Either way, though, I think I'd rather have a Yuri who actually enjoyed the game/likes the character.

And well, if you can't beat Dehuai (I assume it's Dehuai), your brute force isn't working very well, is it? ;)

Well, in the future, could you actually tell me these things, so they don't end up on my list?

Yes, it's Dehuai. And my brute force isn't very good because I am not Skuld, and actually believe in _strategy_.

Tell you what, that you didn't give me a final answer?

My point was that if brute force isn't working maybe you should be using _strategy_.

No, that you had someone else that was doing it.

I tried that too. Which means spending far too long leveling up, which I can't do because I'm low on health items and there isn't anywhere I can get them, I think.

I didn't the last time I talked to you.

What level are you? Which characters? Are you using the right element for Fusion? (One of the guards on the lowest level of the stairs on the screen with the boss fight in it is a store. You'll miss out on a lot if you don't talk to people.)

... Um. You don't mean the first of the two boss battles with Dehuai in a row, do you?