Protecting- [Rain cuts himself off abruptly. He is not going to lose his composure now, not when he's clung to it for this long. He takes a breath and lowers his voice a bit, though his words are no less pointed.]

Knowledge is the most dangerous thing here. Handing it out puts people at risk. Especially when you call such a meeting over the journals. If I'd seen it-

[Again Rain cuts himself off, and his gaze drops to a spot on the ground beside his feet. His voice grows slightly more subdued, his expression melancholy.] ...If I'd seen it in time, you wouldn't have died. I'd have stopped you.